I know what I’ve done today

Frankly, I would love not to come to work today. Not in the mood. I took my own sweet time to get ready… I wish I could retain last year energy, when I was working on Dapat Auto, it was so much fun!

I picked Elly up from her place and straight head to office. Hamid, Bear, Amsyar and Jumie was out for recce, only both of us left. Have to work on quotation for Kekkwa but I have to meet the person-in-charge before I could come out with final quote. Called Canang but they never return my call. Office was boring and Pakcik was conducting interview with some potential employees (pity those unlucky guys…). I YM Elly and said, why don’t we go out and have some FUN before Pakcik asked us to do costing or whatever.

Later, we were heading to Jalan San Ping to do window shopping (window shopping…tipu je tuh, mmg nak shopping!). I wish I could find some plain long sleeve t-shirt… tapi mak datuk! If you reached there, you really don’t know where to start with as there are rows of shop that sell clothes. We were so happy and thought we would get bundles of cheap clothes… we went to the 1st shop that we saw, which was located on the 1st floor. We were so crazy about the whole thing… imagine 1 piece of t-shirt only cost us rm10 or less (ya… ya… I know we can get the same price at F.O.S, here is totally more variety than that! ). we went round and round and round…… but sooner our happiness fades, most of the shops sell clothes in bundle, which means you have to buy either 6 or 12 pieces at a time… though we managed to find a shop that sells loose items, but it is without much choice. So we bought pair of trouser each… and that’s all… it was so FRUSTRATING! Later, we decided to browse at Nichii… which Elly bought 2 jackets! Arrghhhh…! I couldn’t find any for myself…

The down side of the whole thing… I terseliuh when we were at Jln San Ping… it took me 2 days before I can walk properly… the BEST thing is, we PONTENG from work for half day! It was so FUN! (but not really because i thot i cud get dozens of long sleeve t-shirts, tapi tgk2 Elly yang shopping sakan. siot betul!)

last date with old flame

I met Farhan the other day. He’s going to get married by end of the week. Spending his last few days as a bachelor with me… haha!

Remember when 1st met him. It was in 2000. I was a new asst. editor and he’s an animator. We have nothing in common actually. He used to hang around with Waknin and I was with Leenda and Aqil most of the time. I can’t really remember how did it happened… all I could remember is, 1 fine day… he asked me out. I think it started from there…

We were even closer when our office moved to PJ (but is closer to Aqil… till now!)… I started to like him and sending signals, there would be once or twice that he seems to respond to the signals but never make any move and later never responded to any. I thought, might be bertepuk sebelah tangan. And, don’t want to jatuhkan air muka, think it’s better for us to be good friend instead. I still like him until the day before I left for Auckland. I asked my parents to send a pair of rabbits for him. Got to know, he sembelih the rabbits! What a guy!

Things changed when I came back. Was busy with work and couldn’t find the time to hang out with friends anymore and partly due to me staying with my parents. So once in the blue moon, I’ll lepak-lepak. Actually, it’s getting tougher to lepak with friends when having bf. Too many restrictions I think.

When we met, Farhan said… “nape la ko tak bagitau kat aku yang ko dlu suka kat aku… aku ingat ko tak suka orang cam aku… “
I said, “ko gila ke… takkan ko nak aku gedik2 kat ko…”.
“rupa2nya masa ko bagi aku rabit tu, ko mmg suka kat aku la…”.
“Haaaa… aku siap bagi ko peluang utk berkenal2 dgn parents aku tu… Siap parents aku menghantar rabit kat umah ko… tapi ko gi makan rabit tu… sampai hati……..”

It was fun… talking about the good old days… and joking about our foolishness… and the ‘IF’ we were to be a couple… and everything… lastly to wish him all the goodness in this world for finally making it. It’s a good thing that he’s finally found his love and its better that way than marrying someone like me…

Life has so many paths… maybe I took too many that was less travelled. I believe I’ve learnt… insya-Allah…

Love, Lust, Needs and Money...

I hate to go out on Sunday but i have to due to our appointment with Paddington Pancake ppl. Wasn’t quite happy actually and my brain was lagging... Not in the mood and kind of weary... We had long shoot on both Friday and Sat. So i thought staying home would be a better option for me... *sigh* for the sake of work...

Elly told me that Min wanted to follow... so I picked them up at Uptown and drove us to The Curve. Curve was packed with people, plus there was this flee market... it was so hot and I felt bit dizzy. Elly was in ecstasy to see so many booths selling earrings but the 3 of us weren’t left with much money to spend then we headed up to Paddidngton Pancakes and met with one of its partner, Elvina.

After we discussed few details about WFB, we decided to try some of the savoury. I don’t really remember how who started it, It’s about love, marriage and life. Min’s in a relationship but wouldn’t commit, Elly was engaged before but call it quit and now in a ‘so-called relationship’, whilst I’m engaged and not wanting to get married…

Min told me that her aunt said she’ll be happier when she gets married but she thinks the other way round. Most of the ppl that I’ve asked about marriage told me it’s not easy and it’s tougher than you think. It’s not all year honeymoon. There’ll be ups and downs. If you asked me why I want to get engaged… Frankly, I don’t know… maybe I’m confused between love and lust but I’m torn between my own needs and not wanting to share EVERYTHING (e.g MONEY) with my future hubby. I always think guys are better at earning money… but looking back, it was my mum who’s better at business. My dad spent most of his money and my mum’s at some unreasonable investment.

Looking at the ring on my finger… should I forgo or should I proceed? Now that the romance has gone…only bleak money matters arising… *sigh* where’s our faith?